Blanc Thoughts

It’s been a long time since I’ve published anything on here. I figure with all the free time I have now I might as well start up again.

I quit my job and ended a relationship on the same day a few weeks ago.

Fuckin’ crazy move – I know – but it was a survival move.

The job was good for growth and experience, but the day-to-day was being asked to bend over and take it 12 inches and you’d best not make a fuckin’ peep.

I’d prefer a much shorter instrument, but can take maybe 8-10 if I had to. This place had like, an extendo, or something. It just kept getting cranked up until you’d think your friggen chest would explode.

So fuck it. I couldn’t deal with that and the relationship at the same time. I’ve done a lot of work to be better in relationships but it wasn’t working and it had to be done. I was sad about it for a while, but I am mostly mourning the career seppuku I performed.

It is very much not a good time to be desperate for work. I’m starting to seriously consider taking any of the recently vacated landscaping and general labor jobs. I start picking things up and putting them down at a warehouse next weekend.

It’s Easter this weekend. The Boston Marathon too, and my neighbor has a relative or friend from Uganda here running it in. The weekend is action-packed and I’m trying to keep a lid on my mental.

I got rejected following an interview with a hiring manager this week and it took the wind right out of my fuckin’ sails. I had been cruising through this period of unemployment with interviews pretty consistently but nothing has panned out. Now I face my first week, interview-less.

I think I got too excited for the one this past week. It was perfect. I can’t help it if I think I see the light, the heart starts pumping, you move with grace and purpose, then BAM!!! Lights out, motherfucker!!

I’ll live. Something will pop up. I’ll get my hands dirty in some fuckin warehouse and never turn my nose up again at some uppity office coworker. Pray for my dumb ass.